Death

I recently went on my 4th or 5th 10-80 (death scene) run. It always is interesting to see that people when they are dead they almost become something else. When I look at them they seem to become unhuman. That is not meant to be heartless or cold, but in my faith once you are dead there is heaven or hell. Either way your spirit, what I feel is the human part, is gone leaving only the earthly matter.

What still chokes me up everytime I get to a scene is the family and friends reactions. In someway or another I can't help but feel some type of connection to their family. Most of the time I think about how it will be when I die, or my close friends and family pass away. I hope that I can face it and be the strength for everyone else given what I believe, as does the rest of my family and friends, that I will see them again. I have been very blessed that I have not had to lose someone close to me yet. I don't fear the day, but I hope that I will be how God has it planned and that I won't become an empty hole of sadness.